[Feb 15][Shendiao Xialu][Love Is Lonely]

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Title: Love Is Lonely
Day/Theme: Feb 15/embroider me with tears
Series: Shendiao Xialu
Characters: Gongsun Lu'e
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Shendiao Xialu belongs to Jin Yong, et al.


She leaned against a pillar, eyes closed, mouth drawn down. Her tangled hair, her bloody arms and feet, the poison pulsing in her flesh; she could almost see it, bright red and ugly, coursing along her body with each breath.

I should be happy, she thought numbly. I have chosen my own death, and the purpose it will serve. Why can't I feel happy? Because this pain is too great, after all?

She shifted, and a thorn jabbed deeper into her wrist. Wincing, she removed it carefully. As she did so, a patter of footfalls approached, then halted. A scream of surprise cut through the stillness of the twilight, but she could not even hold her head up to see which one of the maids it was. There were more footfalls, gasps, more screams, and then hands caught her sagging, swaying form.

Somebody will remember me in kind, she half-decided, half-hoped as she was ushered gently into a nearby bench. Somebody will sigh and perhaps cry for me. Oh, how I want to believe that.

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Note: Too soppy, I know. But the theme really fits her action toward the end of the third book of the novel. I just can't do it justice.