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31_days2006-01-08 04:16 pm
miakamouse.livejournal.com) wrote in 31_days2006-01-08 04:16 pm
[Jan 8][Naruto] Statements of Denial
Title: Statements of Denial
Theme: Jan 8/Pure Vernunft darf niemals siegen (really just the final verse of the song)
Series: Naruto
Character/Pairing: OT3 (sort of...sasunaru, sasusaku and a smidge of narusaku)
Rating: R - for language (i.e. liberal use of the f-word in its various forms)
Notes: first time i've written anything remotely resembling slash...and i've seen less than 20 eps of this series.. so..proceed with caution, i guess?
Naruto watches Sasuke expectantly, knowing from the sullen look on his face that he has something to say. He’s assumed that almost guarded stance usually reserved for asking help when he’s not sure he deserves it.
“I don’t want her to forget what this marriage really is.” Sasuke never says her name when they talk about her. Maybe he’s afraid of how it will sound from his mouth if it were to come out at these vulnerable moments.
“And what’s that?”
“A marriage of convenience. I want kids, she can have them.” It's taken a long time for Naruto to learn the right questions to ask when Sasuke got into these moods to actually talk to him. He knows Sasuke just wants to reaffirm himself from time to time; state the obvious (or, in tonight's case, deny it)
“What makes you think she might forget that?”
“She gives me these looks sometimes. There’s just something in her eyes that keeps asking for something and I have no fucking clue what she wants from me. So I give it to her.”
“Give what to her?”
“The only thing I know how to give.”
Naruto does a double take at that and feels his anger rise.
“You better not be saying what I fucking think you’re saying.”
“And what’s that?” Sasuke mocks back at him.
“You bastard! If I thought you’d do that to her, I never would have let you go through with it. I don’t care if you hurt me when we fuck, because I know I deserve it sometimes. But I swear if you were anyone else I’d kill you for hurting her.”
Sasuke seems taken aback for a moment before smiling self-deprecatingly.
“I don’t fuck her like I fuck you.” There’s a pause as Naruto finds he can’t trust himself to reply with anything but physical blows. “I never hurt her. She likes it. I—I like it.”
This time it is Sasuke who pauses, as if coming to a realization. He turns away from Naruto before mumbling, “Maybe I’m the one who’s forgetting.”
Pure reason must never win
We badly need new lies
To preserve our beauty
But to split us deep inside
Much more: To deconstruct us
And then to touch us tenderly
To lead us into darkness
To resign to our will
And to bend us like soft fences
Pure reason must never win
Theme: Jan 8/Pure Vernunft darf niemals siegen (really just the final verse of the song)
Series: Naruto
Character/Pairing: OT3 (sort of...sasunaru, sasusaku and a smidge of narusaku)
Rating: R - for language (i.e. liberal use of the f-word in its various forms)
Notes: first time i've written anything remotely resembling slash...and i've seen less than 20 eps of this series.. so..proceed with caution, i guess?
Naruto watches Sasuke expectantly, knowing from the sullen look on his face that he has something to say. He’s assumed that almost guarded stance usually reserved for asking help when he’s not sure he deserves it.
“I don’t want her to forget what this marriage really is.” Sasuke never says her name when they talk about her. Maybe he’s afraid of how it will sound from his mouth if it were to come out at these vulnerable moments.
“And what’s that?”
“A marriage of convenience. I want kids, she can have them.” It's taken a long time for Naruto to learn the right questions to ask when Sasuke got into these moods to actually talk to him. He knows Sasuke just wants to reaffirm himself from time to time; state the obvious (or, in tonight's case, deny it)
“What makes you think she might forget that?”
“She gives me these looks sometimes. There’s just something in her eyes that keeps asking for something and I have no fucking clue what she wants from me. So I give it to her.”
“Give what to her?”
“The only thing I know how to give.”
Naruto does a double take at that and feels his anger rise.
“You better not be saying what I fucking think you’re saying.”
“And what’s that?” Sasuke mocks back at him.
“You bastard! If I thought you’d do that to her, I never would have let you go through with it. I don’t care if you hurt me when we fuck, because I know I deserve it sometimes. But I swear if you were anyone else I’d kill you for hurting her.”
Sasuke seems taken aback for a moment before smiling self-deprecatingly.
“I don’t fuck her like I fuck you.” There’s a pause as Naruto finds he can’t trust himself to reply with anything but physical blows. “I never hurt her. She likes it. I—I like it.”
This time it is Sasuke who pauses, as if coming to a realization. He turns away from Naruto before mumbling, “Maybe I’m the one who’s forgetting.”
Pure reason must never win
We badly need new lies
To preserve our beauty
But to split us deep inside
Much more: To deconstruct us
And then to touch us tenderly
To lead us into darkness
To resign to our will
And to bend us like soft fences
Pure reason must never win