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[4 August, 2005] [Buffy the Vampire Slayer] The Living End
Title: The Living End
Day/Theme: 4 August 2005/She left her life on Monday
Series: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Character: Willow POV, directly after the events of "The Gift." In her head as you see her for the last time in the episode.
Rating: PG (more for how the reader's brain will contextualise than content, really)
It's not enough, is it? It's never enough. It will never be enough, no matter what we do. You've proven that, over and over. Each time a new challenge has arisen, you've faced it, and we've stood by you. Each time, you've eventually defeated it (we'd like to think with our help, but we know ultimately it was you and you alone). We know we wouldn't be here without you, and we're grateful, of course.
But we've been wrong.
We've been wrong this whole time. I've been wrong. I wanted so badly to believe in the goodness and light and in your ability to transcend anything and everything any Big Bad put in your way. And I did, but I'm learning otherwise.
You've given up everything. You've given up people you've loved, you've sacrificed yourself instead of letting your sister die, and for what? Where has this gotten us? I'd like to think I'm not being selfish and just wanting you back, although I know that plays a role. You were---are---my best friend. You're the most noble person I know.
And yet, I know deep down inside, you're wrong. Giles is wrong. Everything we've ever been taught is wrong. Good doesn't always triumph over evil. Things will never be okay ever again.
Unless I do this.
But who am I kidding? I'm pretty sure I'm right, but I don't know if that makes a difference. If I can make a difference. Maybe I can't, but I'll try. That's all I can do, and the best way I can honor you.
I'm sorry. Really and truly, I am.
Day/Theme: 4 August 2005/She left her life on Monday
Series: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Character: Willow POV, directly after the events of "The Gift." In her head as you see her for the last time in the episode.
Rating: PG (more for how the reader's brain will contextualise than content, really)
It's not enough, is it? It's never enough. It will never be enough, no matter what we do. You've proven that, over and over. Each time a new challenge has arisen, you've faced it, and we've stood by you. Each time, you've eventually defeated it (we'd like to think with our help, but we know ultimately it was you and you alone). We know we wouldn't be here without you, and we're grateful, of course.
But we've been wrong.
We've been wrong this whole time. I've been wrong. I wanted so badly to believe in the goodness and light and in your ability to transcend anything and everything any Big Bad put in your way. And I did, but I'm learning otherwise.
You've given up everything. You've given up people you've loved, you've sacrificed yourself instead of letting your sister die, and for what? Where has this gotten us? I'd like to think I'm not being selfish and just wanting you back, although I know that plays a role. You were---are---my best friend. You're the most noble person I know.
And yet, I know deep down inside, you're wrong. Giles is wrong. Everything we've ever been taught is wrong. Good doesn't always triumph over evil. Things will never be okay ever again.
Unless I do this.
But who am I kidding? I'm pretty sure I'm right, but I don't know if that makes a difference. If I can make a difference. Maybe I can't, but I'll try. That's all I can do, and the best way I can honor you.
I'm sorry. Really and truly, I am.