[January 29] [The Shape of Water] Too Easily Cracked

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Title: Too Easily Cracked

Day/Theme: 29. No more my splintered heart

Series: The Shape of Water

Character/Pairing: Eliza/The Asset

Rating:PG

It was so easy to feel like missing pieces. There was so much she didn’t have. An orphan, scarred and silent, she had never been adopted. She had never had a family. She had found a place in a forgotten corner, overlooked by nearly everyone. She had friends, at least two. Zelda was the one everyone liked. Because Zelda loved her, the others accepted her. She wasn’t a part of them, though. They weren’t a part of her.

Did she want to be seen? Of course. Even the ones who didn’t walk by like she didn’t exist talked about her like she wasn’t there. Yolanda called her’ the mute’, even though Zelda made sure everyone knew her name. Yolanda wasn’t cruel though. Just hard. There wasn’t a lot of room for softness in this place, even underneath.

It was like eggs, maybe, she thought. Hard on the outside, soft inside. Too easily cracked and eaten.

And then there was the man with the green candy. Everything about him was hard. Just like the candy. Crack that and all you would get was splinters.  He thought he wanted her, but he didn’t. He was like the rest. He only saw what she didn’t have, imagined it an empty hole, and thought he could cram his dick into it.

He was missing more than she was. He was the cruel one. A missing heart to match his missing fingers. Even if they sewed him a new one in and wrapped it in a band of gold, it would fester and rot without any love in it, just like the fingers.

She knew what love was. Even at her loneliest, she had always known that. Giles loved her. Zelda loved her. She loved them. And then there was him.

He wasn’t called by his name either. ‘The Asset’ they called him. That’s all he was to them. Just like she was ‘the mute’. To her, he was all the missing pieces filling her up until she was full, like water in a bowl. To him, she was all he had never had and never known was out there. Together, there was no need for anything else.