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[May 19] [Pacific Rim] Maybe Never
Title: Maybe Never
Day/Theme: 19. yuputka (walking in the woods at night)
Series: Pacific Rim
Character/Pairing: Hermann/Newt
Rating: part 19 of 31
Back at base, Hansen was up and pacing. Adrenaline had him jittery and talking to himself, so he had headed out into the cold to wear himself down a little before trying to sleep.
The three-way Drift had worked. He could barely believe it. It hadn't been like Drifting before. They hadn't meshed completely. The handshake hadn't gone all the way to the bone. He had been aware of Mako and Raleigh's immediate thoughts and emotions, but nothing deeper. The strongest connection had happened when the Mumbler had stabbed Raleigh. Mako's emotions had flared like lightning and Hansen had moved with her, caught up and carried along with the flood. They had been in perfect synch in that moment, wrenching the thing away from Raleigh and killing it. It hadn't mattered that Raleigh hadn't been in the jaeger to be hurt.
It still wasn't the same, part of him grumbled. Gottlieb had been right when he said it wouldn't be having Chuck back. It wasn't even like having his own Compatible copilot. But it was something, and his lonely mind had been starving for it. Just a taste was enough to make him feel ten years younger. Settle, he told himself. It isn't going to be like this every time. It isn't going to be like the old days, especially with no one to be with outside of a jaeger. That's why Mako and Raleigh weren't out here with him. They had each other to balance out, burn off the extra, stabilize. Hansen didn't. Probably wouldn't. Maybe never again.
How many times had he wished that Chuck had lived since Operation Pitfall? The thought didn't even register anymore. It was a constant in his mind and an ache that never faded. He wondered suddenly if Mako and Raleigh had felt it in their own veins. Poor kids. They had to survive their own heartbreak and loss without having to bear his. But, he hadn't heard Yancy's screams or Stacker's silence from either of them. Maybe the shallow Drift had spared them all.
And truth be told, if Chuck were here, he would likely be complaining bitterly about not being able to use Striker Eureka anymore. He would've insulted the new designs mercilessly, torn into the scientists for thinking they could reinvent the wheel, mocked Raleigh and Mako for going along with it until one of them hit him. Eventually, it would be a competition to be alpha in the Drift pool. Oh, he'd be obnoxious and Hansen heard himself laughing softly into the cold air. He made himself stop and start back before he got too far away.
He still had people to protect. He owed it to them, not just to the people they had lost.
Day/Theme: 19. yuputka (walking in the woods at night)
Series: Pacific Rim
Character/Pairing: Hermann/Newt
Rating: part 19 of 31
Back at base, Hansen was up and pacing. Adrenaline had him jittery and talking to himself, so he had headed out into the cold to wear himself down a little before trying to sleep.
The three-way Drift had worked. He could barely believe it. It hadn't been like Drifting before. They hadn't meshed completely. The handshake hadn't gone all the way to the bone. He had been aware of Mako and Raleigh's immediate thoughts and emotions, but nothing deeper. The strongest connection had happened when the Mumbler had stabbed Raleigh. Mako's emotions had flared like lightning and Hansen had moved with her, caught up and carried along with the flood. They had been in perfect synch in that moment, wrenching the thing away from Raleigh and killing it. It hadn't mattered that Raleigh hadn't been in the jaeger to be hurt.
It still wasn't the same, part of him grumbled. Gottlieb had been right when he said it wouldn't be having Chuck back. It wasn't even like having his own Compatible copilot. But it was something, and his lonely mind had been starving for it. Just a taste was enough to make him feel ten years younger. Settle, he told himself. It isn't going to be like this every time. It isn't going to be like the old days, especially with no one to be with outside of a jaeger. That's why Mako and Raleigh weren't out here with him. They had each other to balance out, burn off the extra, stabilize. Hansen didn't. Probably wouldn't. Maybe never again.
How many times had he wished that Chuck had lived since Operation Pitfall? The thought didn't even register anymore. It was a constant in his mind and an ache that never faded. He wondered suddenly if Mako and Raleigh had felt it in their own veins. Poor kids. They had to survive their own heartbreak and loss without having to bear his. But, he hadn't heard Yancy's screams or Stacker's silence from either of them. Maybe the shallow Drift had spared them all.
And truth be told, if Chuck were here, he would likely be complaining bitterly about not being able to use Striker Eureka anymore. He would've insulted the new designs mercilessly, torn into the scientists for thinking they could reinvent the wheel, mocked Raleigh and Mako for going along with it until one of them hit him. Eventually, it would be a competition to be alpha in the Drift pool. Oh, he'd be obnoxious and Hansen heard himself laughing softly into the cold air. He made himself stop and start back before he got too far away.
He still had people to protect. He owed it to them, not just to the people they had lost.