[May 17 2013][Digimon ZeroTwo] Still Alive

[reafterthought.livejournal.com]

Title: Still Alive
Fandom: Digimon ZeroTwo
Summary: : You're stopping me from dying...and you're killing yourself. So now we're both stuck: unable to live, unable to die.
Prompt: May 17, “that fork in the road will bleed me like a knife.”
Characters (main): Osamu Ichijouji, Ken Ichijouji
Pairings: none
Genres: poetry
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon ZeroTwo or any of the characters depicted within this fic unless stated otherwise. I own the plot except where it
is canonical - to make it simple, I own everything you don't recognise.
Word Count: 160

Still Alive

Oh Ken.

Don’t you know how much you hurt me,
clinging to the dead?

You can’t be me.
Don’t try.
Don’t kill yourself.

You can’t bring me back
to the surface by drowning
yourself.

You can’t make me live
by halting the path
of your own future.

You’re just making me watch this –

Making me watch
you destroy yourself
and destroy me

Because you made me realise
how I’ve been

And
how I should have been.
Especially with you.

But you can’t change that Ken
so let go of the past.

Don’t listen to those whispers
in your head
but your heart

Which had always been so big and warm

And bury me.
Let me rest from this
Because I can’t come back.
I can’t change
but while you cling to me,
I can’t leave.
I can’t be free.

And neither can you.

Ken, you.
Dig yourself out of my grave
and live on

And let me die.