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[Jan. 9] [Suikoden III] I Could Fly If I Wished
Title: I Could Fly If I Wished
Day/Theme: Jan. 9, 2011 "Oh wow, look at you now, flowers in the window"
Series: Suikoden III
Character/Pairing: Sarah(->Luc)
Rating: PG
Author's comment: For some reason I felt like "Sarah lives" fic. So, this is that.
Nothing's really changed around here. Nothing that you'd want to know about anyway. Master Luc, would it make you sad? Would you be troubled to see where I've ended up? To see how little the world you wanted to change has changed? I miss you, so I wish I could show you these things, even though you wouldn't want to see them. Oh, what a cruel person I've become. Sasarai, you see, has begun to rub off on me.
Sasarai isn't like you, but his reflection still reminds me. His reflection is crueler than he in that fashion. Would you ever forgive me, if you knew the life I was living? Would you chastise me? I am, after all, alive and now well. I know that you'd be happy about that part. You didn't really want me to die, but you appreciated the gesture.
You were a wonderful person. You're an important part of my life even now. ...It's funny. For the longest time, you were my life. And now, what am I living for after leaving your cause behind me? ...Don't worry, I'm not living for Sasarai. Nor for any of his causes or purposes. I'm living for myself. I'm a like a little bird in his gilded cage- albeit a cage with an open door. I could fly if I wished, but for now I'll stay. It would be strange to go home now. I don't know what Lady Leknaat and I would say to each other. I don't know if I could stand to stay there without you. So I'll stay here for now. It's quiet enough, for all that I'm hidden away in the heart of a country that hates me. I know that between my own powers and Sasarai's efforts and you watching over me somehow that I'm safe this way. Safe enough and well now too.
Someday, I hope I'll have a reason to go to the window and fly away. That there'll be something better to live for than just keeping moving through each day. When it comes, I'll be ready. I won't forget what you've taught me. I won't forget how to fly.
Day/Theme: Jan. 9, 2011 "Oh wow, look at you now, flowers in the window"
Series: Suikoden III
Character/Pairing: Sarah(->Luc)
Rating: PG
Author's comment: For some reason I felt like "Sarah lives" fic. So, this is that.
Nothing's really changed around here. Nothing that you'd want to know about anyway. Master Luc, would it make you sad? Would you be troubled to see where I've ended up? To see how little the world you wanted to change has changed? I miss you, so I wish I could show you these things, even though you wouldn't want to see them. Oh, what a cruel person I've become. Sasarai, you see, has begun to rub off on me.
Sasarai isn't like you, but his reflection still reminds me. His reflection is crueler than he in that fashion. Would you ever forgive me, if you knew the life I was living? Would you chastise me? I am, after all, alive and now well. I know that you'd be happy about that part. You didn't really want me to die, but you appreciated the gesture.
You were a wonderful person. You're an important part of my life even now. ...It's funny. For the longest time, you were my life. And now, what am I living for after leaving your cause behind me? ...Don't worry, I'm not living for Sasarai. Nor for any of his causes or purposes. I'm living for myself. I'm a like a little bird in his gilded cage- albeit a cage with an open door. I could fly if I wished, but for now I'll stay. It would be strange to go home now. I don't know what Lady Leknaat and I would say to each other. I don't know if I could stand to stay there without you. So I'll stay here for now. It's quiet enough, for all that I'm hidden away in the heart of a country that hates me. I know that between my own powers and Sasarai's efforts and you watching over me somehow that I'm safe this way. Safe enough and well now too.
Someday, I hope I'll have a reason to go to the window and fly away. That there'll be something better to live for than just keeping moving through each day. When it comes, I'll be ready. I won't forget what you've taught me. I won't forget how to fly.