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[June 20] [Toward the Terra] Judgment
Title: Judgment
Day/Theme: June 20, "wonder cannot be understood from the inside"
Series: Toward the Terra
Character/Pairing: Physis, Tony
Rating: G
Tony made her new Tarot cards. Physis could not tell any longer what emotions ran through his head when he did it: whether he was sorry for the things he had said to her, or whether he simply wanted to take care of his people as the new Soldier. Either way, she was pleased, as pleased as she could be these days. It showed that he was growing. It showed that he had rediscovered his childhood devotion to art (left behind so recently and yet so long ago) and wanted to do something with it to bring them together. It showed that he considered her one of them.
The numbers and pips on these cards were raised, since Physis could no longer look out through the eyes of another to see what was on the cards. But she knew what the pictures looked like, all the same. She recalled them from the days Soldier Blue had first taught them to her, sitting on the bed next to her, sending bewildering and enticing images into her mind. She would never forget.
Physis shuffled through the deck and picked cards now of her own volition. She turned over the Lovers. Had Blue ever truly known what he meant to her? Of course he had; he had done everything for her. But now that he was gone, now that they were all gone, she doubted. Was she one of them? Or was she just a doll Blue had picked up?
"I don't know," Tony said. She started; she hadn't sensed his approach. But he'd reached right into her mind and plucked out her fears. "Does it matter anymore? He's dead. And Grandpa...Jomy is dead."
He wanted comfort, too. She could understand that where the others, who saw him only as the new Soldier, could not. Physis reached for his hand. "What we were to people matters," she said. "And to Jomy you were both Tony and the next Soldier."
He was silent. He couldn't comfort her. She understood, though, that it was all right. She wasn't meant to be comforted; that was something she had to do herself.
She was meant to remember what they had been like, underneath the mantle of Soldier.
Day/Theme: June 20, "wonder cannot be understood from the inside"
Series: Toward the Terra
Character/Pairing: Physis, Tony
Rating: G
Tony made her new Tarot cards. Physis could not tell any longer what emotions ran through his head when he did it: whether he was sorry for the things he had said to her, or whether he simply wanted to take care of his people as the new Soldier. Either way, she was pleased, as pleased as she could be these days. It showed that he was growing. It showed that he had rediscovered his childhood devotion to art (left behind so recently and yet so long ago) and wanted to do something with it to bring them together. It showed that he considered her one of them.
The numbers and pips on these cards were raised, since Physis could no longer look out through the eyes of another to see what was on the cards. But she knew what the pictures looked like, all the same. She recalled them from the days Soldier Blue had first taught them to her, sitting on the bed next to her, sending bewildering and enticing images into her mind. She would never forget.
Physis shuffled through the deck and picked cards now of her own volition. She turned over the Lovers. Had Blue ever truly known what he meant to her? Of course he had; he had done everything for her. But now that he was gone, now that they were all gone, she doubted. Was she one of them? Or was she just a doll Blue had picked up?
"I don't know," Tony said. She started; she hadn't sensed his approach. But he'd reached right into her mind and plucked out her fears. "Does it matter anymore? He's dead. And Grandpa...Jomy is dead."
He wanted comfort, too. She could understand that where the others, who saw him only as the new Soldier, could not. Physis reached for his hand. "What we were to people matters," she said. "And to Jomy you were both Tony and the next Soldier."
He was silent. He couldn't comfort her. She understood, though, that it was all right. She wasn't meant to be comforted; that was something she had to do herself.
She was meant to remember what they had been like, underneath the mantle of Soldier.