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[31 MAY] [AMNESTY DAY POST]
Title: The Preservation of Sanity
Day/Theme: 8th May 2010; I'm afraid to forget you
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Character(s)/Pairing(s): John, Cameron, mentions Allison; implied John/Cameron
Rating: G
Notes: Set after and contains spoilers for the end of Season 2.
He is here to get her back.
It is a mantra John recites in his head every moment he spends in this wretched hellhole, this future that he was born for but has no part in. A post-Judgement Day world where John Connor is not the legendary leader of the Resistance because he was never there to lead them. All because he chose to cross time and space for a girl who is less than human yet more than just a machine.
He wills himself to ignore "Allison", to put as much distance as he can between them. It hurts to look at her, to see the same face but a different... person looking back at him. He knows Allison is the template, that Cameron took her face and not the other way around but it still feels wrong all the same. This is not the cyborg who has saved his life time and again, who has always been there even when he hadn't wanted her around, who put her life in his hands because she was determined to protect him from everything including herself. She is not the one he has given up everything for.
(Perhaps, he considers, that is one of the reasons why he treasures her so much. She is the grey, the unpredictable balance of two worlds, a mixture of the best and worst of both sides. It makes her unique - makes her his Cameron - and isn't that what being an individual is all about? What does it matter if beneath the flesh lies metal instead of bone?)
It doesn't matter, he tells himself. He will get her back somehow and together they will go back to their own time. He'll fix everything from there. He'll make peace with his mother, learn what he needs to know and continue to fight Skynet as the great John Connor. But most of all he'll make sure he'll never lose her again.
I'll find you, Cameron. I swear.
He wants to believe that wherever she is - regardless of how impossible it is - she can hear him.
Title: Malleable
Day/Theme: 11th May 2010; I could be all that you want and more
Series: Persona 3
Character(s)/Pairing(s): MC, Yukari; implied MC/Yukari
Rating: G
Notes: Set early in the series.
She intrigues him. On the surface she seems like any other pretty girl: popular, cheerful, disinterested.
But appearances are deceiving. He knows it better than anyone else. (He is, after all, nothingness personified. A blank slate, to be written whenever he feels like it with whatever he needs to be.)
There is something about her, thrumming below the mask of false smiles and staged laughs. He can feel it like a pulse, erratic and bursting with hidden life. Something he can only truly discover if he can get close enough.
And he will. Time and effort must be invested, as well as a great deal of patience. Curiosity - and maybe desire - demands that he succeed.
So he makes his preparations, painting yet another empty mask with just enough truth for it to hold up against scrutiny. He keeps his distance, even as he slowly gets closer. He plays his written part even as he slowly changes the script.
He will give her what she wants - for now - and when the time is right, he will become what she needs. When that day comes, he is sure he will finally get to see the face behind the mask.
Title: No Fate But What We Make
Day/Theme: 18th May 2010; in the night sky
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Character(s)/Pairing(s): John
Rating: G
Notes: Not very time-specific. No spoilers.
The stars above him stare down like passive gods. It is not a far-off comparison; humans across time and civilizations have always believed that the universe decides their fates in some form or other. Whether it is the position of the stars or the alignment of the planets, a person's destiny is decided the moment they are brought into this world.
He snorts derisively. In his case, his fate had been decided long before his birth. Although technically it could be counted as a causality loop. He is too tired right now to think about the ramifications of time travel.
Deep down, John knows the war is inevitable. The future is the past, the past is the future. If his future self had not sent Kyle back to protect his mother, he would never have been born. If Terminators had not made their way back, humanity would have taken much longer to create Skynet, if at all. An endless loop. A smirk crosses his face. Guess I'm not too tired after all.
But nothing is set in stone. Perhaps the war will come without fail, but their actions will have an impact, great or small. They can improve their odds, weaken the enemy, save more lives, buy more time. Maybe they can shape a future where winning is more possibility than fleeting hope.
No fate but what we make.
He clings to those words like a lifeline.
Title: The Dead, the Living and the In-between
Day/Theme: 20th May 2010; because I dream of her too often
Series: Shin Seiki Evangelion
Character(s)/Pairing(s): Shinji, Rei; implied Shinji/Rei
Rating: G
Notes: Set after the events of chapter 70 of the manga.
Shinji's nights are ruled by searing white and mind-numbing loss. It's always the same day after day, the memory replaying again and again until he can't tell whether he prefers to be awake or asleep because it's all the same. He's here and she's not. He's here because she's not.
Seeing her - the Rei who is not Rei, not his Rei - pains him. It only serves to remind him that she was never who - what - he thought she was. She was - is - not human, merely a puppet of flesh and bone moving at another's bidding. (But the hardest part is staring at a face so dear to him only to find someone else staring back.)
When he is awake, the girl with blue hair and red eyes looks at him but never sees him, does not speak to him, does not acknowledge him. In the waking world, she is always a stranger to him.
When he is asleep, the girl with blue hair and red eyes smiles, holds his hand, offers him tea yet does not know how to make it. In the dream world, she is always dying for him.
Title: Mementos
Day/Theme: 30th May 2010; I am remembering you
Series: Code Geass
Character(s)/Pairing(s): C.C., Lelouch; implied Lelouch/C.C.
Rating: G
Notes: Set post-R2. Major spoilers for the end.
The picture lies hidden, safely tucked away in her jacket. In it he is relaxed, his wiry frame propped up against the ornate railing as he wears a smile that is part exasperation and part embarassment. It amuses (amused?) her how he had always been rather camera-shy. She had chosen it half through randomness and half with purpose, picking this one snapshot out of a small stack before leaving his - their - room for the last time.
It is the only material piece of him she can carry with her, after all. His mask - his true face in some aspects - is now being worn by another, an identity to be borne like a curse when the need arises. The parts that make up the boy - man, she corrects herself - called Lelouch are ashes, leaving only a truth the world must never know.
She misses him already. The verbal sparring, the touches both accidental and purposeful, the sound of her real name falling off his lips... every last facet and fragment that had defined all the dimensions of their relationship. But he is gone and she is here, and she has promised herself to go on. (And maybe if the universe has a twisted sense of humour she will meet him again in another life.)
She carries his picture in her pocket and his legacy in her heart. It will have to be enough.
Day/Theme: 8th May 2010; I'm afraid to forget you
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Character(s)/Pairing(s): John, Cameron, mentions Allison; implied John/Cameron
Rating: G
Notes: Set after and contains spoilers for the end of Season 2.
He is here to get her back.
It is a mantra John recites in his head every moment he spends in this wretched hellhole, this future that he was born for but has no part in. A post-Judgement Day world where John Connor is not the legendary leader of the Resistance because he was never there to lead them. All because he chose to cross time and space for a girl who is less than human yet more than just a machine.
He wills himself to ignore "Allison", to put as much distance as he can between them. It hurts to look at her, to see the same face but a different... person looking back at him. He knows Allison is the template, that Cameron took her face and not the other way around but it still feels wrong all the same. This is not the cyborg who has saved his life time and again, who has always been there even when he hadn't wanted her around, who put her life in his hands because she was determined to protect him from everything including herself. She is not the one he has given up everything for.
(Perhaps, he considers, that is one of the reasons why he treasures her so much. She is the grey, the unpredictable balance of two worlds, a mixture of the best and worst of both sides. It makes her unique - makes her his Cameron - and isn't that what being an individual is all about? What does it matter if beneath the flesh lies metal instead of bone?)
It doesn't matter, he tells himself. He will get her back somehow and together they will go back to their own time. He'll fix everything from there. He'll make peace with his mother, learn what he needs to know and continue to fight Skynet as the great John Connor. But most of all he'll make sure he'll never lose her again.
I'll find you, Cameron. I swear.
He wants to believe that wherever she is - regardless of how impossible it is - she can hear him.
Title: Malleable
Day/Theme: 11th May 2010; I could be all that you want and more
Series: Persona 3
Character(s)/Pairing(s): MC, Yukari; implied MC/Yukari
Rating: G
Notes: Set early in the series.
She intrigues him. On the surface she seems like any other pretty girl: popular, cheerful, disinterested.
But appearances are deceiving. He knows it better than anyone else. (He is, after all, nothingness personified. A blank slate, to be written whenever he feels like it with whatever he needs to be.)
There is something about her, thrumming below the mask of false smiles and staged laughs. He can feel it like a pulse, erratic and bursting with hidden life. Something he can only truly discover if he can get close enough.
And he will. Time and effort must be invested, as well as a great deal of patience. Curiosity - and maybe desire - demands that he succeed.
So he makes his preparations, painting yet another empty mask with just enough truth for it to hold up against scrutiny. He keeps his distance, even as he slowly gets closer. He plays his written part even as he slowly changes the script.
He will give her what she wants - for now - and when the time is right, he will become what she needs. When that day comes, he is sure he will finally get to see the face behind the mask.
Title: No Fate But What We Make
Day/Theme: 18th May 2010; in the night sky
Series: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Character(s)/Pairing(s): John
Rating: G
Notes: Not very time-specific. No spoilers.
The stars above him stare down like passive gods. It is not a far-off comparison; humans across time and civilizations have always believed that the universe decides their fates in some form or other. Whether it is the position of the stars or the alignment of the planets, a person's destiny is decided the moment they are brought into this world.
He snorts derisively. In his case, his fate had been decided long before his birth. Although technically it could be counted as a causality loop. He is too tired right now to think about the ramifications of time travel.
Deep down, John knows the war is inevitable. The future is the past, the past is the future. If his future self had not sent Kyle back to protect his mother, he would never have been born. If Terminators had not made their way back, humanity would have taken much longer to create Skynet, if at all. An endless loop. A smirk crosses his face. Guess I'm not too tired after all.
But nothing is set in stone. Perhaps the war will come without fail, but their actions will have an impact, great or small. They can improve their odds, weaken the enemy, save more lives, buy more time. Maybe they can shape a future where winning is more possibility than fleeting hope.
No fate but what we make.
He clings to those words like a lifeline.
Title: The Dead, the Living and the In-between
Day/Theme: 20th May 2010; because I dream of her too often
Series: Shin Seiki Evangelion
Character(s)/Pairing(s): Shinji, Rei; implied Shinji/Rei
Rating: G
Notes: Set after the events of chapter 70 of the manga.
Shinji's nights are ruled by searing white and mind-numbing loss. It's always the same day after day, the memory replaying again and again until he can't tell whether he prefers to be awake or asleep because it's all the same. He's here and she's not. He's here because she's not.
Seeing her - the Rei who is not Rei, not his Rei - pains him. It only serves to remind him that she was never who - what - he thought she was. She was - is - not human, merely a puppet of flesh and bone moving at another's bidding. (But the hardest part is staring at a face so dear to him only to find someone else staring back.)
When he is awake, the girl with blue hair and red eyes looks at him but never sees him, does not speak to him, does not acknowledge him. In the waking world, she is always a stranger to him.
When he is asleep, the girl with blue hair and red eyes smiles, holds his hand, offers him tea yet does not know how to make it. In the dream world, she is always dying for him.
Title: Mementos
Day/Theme: 30th May 2010; I am remembering you
Series: Code Geass
Character(s)/Pairing(s): C.C., Lelouch; implied Lelouch/C.C.
Rating: G
Notes: Set post-R2. Major spoilers for the end.
The picture lies hidden, safely tucked away in her jacket. In it he is relaxed, his wiry frame propped up against the ornate railing as he wears a smile that is part exasperation and part embarassment. It amuses (amused?) her how he had always been rather camera-shy. She had chosen it half through randomness and half with purpose, picking this one snapshot out of a small stack before leaving his - their - room for the last time.
It is the only material piece of him she can carry with her, after all. His mask - his true face in some aspects - is now being worn by another, an identity to be borne like a curse when the need arises. The parts that make up the boy - man, she corrects herself - called Lelouch are ashes, leaving only a truth the world must never know.
She misses him already. The verbal sparring, the touches both accidental and purposeful, the sound of her real name falling off his lips... every last facet and fragment that had defined all the dimensions of their relationship. But he is gone and she is here, and she has promised herself to go on. (And maybe if the universe has a twisted sense of humour she will meet him again in another life.)
She carries his picture in her pocket and his legacy in her heart. It will have to be enough.