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[April 25] [Shadow Hearts: Covenant] Don't Call To The Darkness
Title: Don't Call To The Darkness
Day/Theme: April 25, 2010 "When the monsters call out the names of men"
Series: Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Character/Pairing: Nicolai
Rating: PG
There are things in the darkness that can sense your fear. When I went to the orphanage, people told me they weren't real, but I already knew the truth. The people who sold you sugar-coated truths were liars. I had seen the eyes in the dark already. My mother had seen them too. She didn't lie like the others. She told me they were real. She told me to keep my wits about me and never answer when they called.
A pity she never told me to call them myself. I considered this a sort of lovely loophole when I sought out Astaroth's power. I wasn't disobeying my mother if she had never thought to tell me not to. Rather, I think she would have been at least a little bit proud of me and both my long term resolve and ingenuity.
After I had the demon in hand, I realized how cocky I had been to think it would be easy. But I still believed in my own abilities. If a man like Yuri could do it, well why couldn't I?
Oh, back then, when I'd thought I was cocky, what a joke. Overestimation? By far. I wasn't Yuri, I wasn't better than Yuri, as much as it hurts me to say. I was a foolish man. I called the darkness and the darkness doesn't answer unless it knows it will win.
Day/Theme: April 25, 2010 "When the monsters call out the names of men"
Series: Shadow Hearts: Covenant
Character/Pairing: Nicolai
Rating: PG
There are things in the darkness that can sense your fear. When I went to the orphanage, people told me they weren't real, but I already knew the truth. The people who sold you sugar-coated truths were liars. I had seen the eyes in the dark already. My mother had seen them too. She didn't lie like the others. She told me they were real. She told me to keep my wits about me and never answer when they called.
A pity she never told me to call them myself. I considered this a sort of lovely loophole when I sought out Astaroth's power. I wasn't disobeying my mother if she had never thought to tell me not to. Rather, I think she would have been at least a little bit proud of me and both my long term resolve and ingenuity.
After I had the demon in hand, I realized how cocky I had been to think it would be easy. But I still believed in my own abilities. If a man like Yuri could do it, well why couldn't I?
Oh, back then, when I'd thought I was cocky, what a joke. Overestimation? By far. I wasn't Yuri, I wasn't better than Yuri, as much as it hurts me to say. I was a foolish man. I called the darkness and the darkness doesn't answer unless it knows it will win.