[March 31] [Naruto] [4/4] feels like spring

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Title: feels like spring
Day/Theme: 31. Nothing to say, besides some comment on the weather
Series: Naruto
Character/Pairing: SasuSaku
Rating: G/K
Note: This is where fact and fiction part.  The others ones were based on true events.  This happy one is wistful thinking.
 

Cross-posted on Fanfiction.net and to fanfic_no_jutsu, sakura_chyan, and naruto_fanworks

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It's been a while and we've only grown more accustomed to sitting in silence―it isn't a bad thing. This way, there are no misheard syllables and no misunderstandings.

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[and maybe i've learned this the hard way]

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I think we've grown. Altogether, the amount of time we've spent together has spanned about two years, and the most important moments happened in the last few weeks.
I've been happy and sad and jealous [sometimes of Naruto] and I've realized that a lot of the things that make me sad have been a result of something I've done. And the jealousy is usually a result of overthinking and then I stop thinking and―
Yeah.

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[that's when i get worse before it gets better]

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I'm the kind of person who can only do anything well when I'm in the mood for it. And I'm definitely not in the mood to angst.
I'm sad a lot. It comes with the whole love thing.

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[looklook i can say it now without flinching]

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But it gets better. You just can't see the light when it's around the bend. The roller-coaster states of mind are gone, and this moment of stasis is more than enough for me right now.
If I needed to sum up whatever progress I've made lately, I think I could do it. I can.
I could say that we can read each other now. 

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[our looks mean so much more and we smile like inside jokes]

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I might say that he's as comfortable with me as I am with him.

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[we topic-leap from school to futures to tragedies unfolding on the tv]

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I can―maybefinally―say that [hell. yes.] I love Sasuke. And it could be that simple.

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[yes it gets easier and i can face the truth and be honest to myself again]

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So now, two years after the first time we spent the day together, we're past the awkward and the uncomfortable. Thoughts don't need to be voiced, and eventually, it comes to a point where we don't need to say anything.
But if we want to, nothing's stopping us.
It's getting that good. And I'm happy.
I think it might be the fact that we haven't seen snow for a few weeks now, and the unstable temperatures have calmed down with my mood. Actually, it's probably the other way around.
In keeping with our habits, I tell him what I think.

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"It's getting warmer. We can take walks again."
[laugh]
"Yeah."
"It's finally spring, Sasuke."

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 [we part like waking up and i know we'll be here again]