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[January 2nd] [Original] last circle
Title: last circle
Day / Theme: January 2nd: he whose body is crazy and feeble.
Series: Original [ifupdown]
Character / Pairing: Iall, talking a decent bit about Kala aka Daisy
Rating: PG/PG13
Wordcount: 517
Notes: This is a couple minutes late due to the fact that Linux decided that never copy+pasting again would be a fun thing to do. I hope that's okay. Also, matches a bit to yesterday's. (And then I posted it in the wrong comm. I. Fail.)
There are things he could never tell anyone. For example:
Always, always, there's some kind of rebel. It's a requirement, it's needed, it's -- it's essential, is what it is. Were it not for Kala, Iall wouldn't be in his current post, and so he has her to thank -- in a way he is thanking her; he's far more lenient than his predecessor (his name, Iall remembers, was Zane; and what kind of name is that? A forgotten one, obviously). Kala isn't dead.
Kala's role was to shake things up and she did it too well -- if she'd been worse at changing things, she would not have been found out so quickly, she would not have been taken before the untainted, she might still be here. That, to Iall, is extremely frustrating; he might still have her, were it not for idiot Zane, instead of having to chase after her and put up with any abuse she wanted to heap on him in case she'd be willing to come home.
And truly he can't understand, on the level of his mind that functions as a Fate, why she won't accept. He's offering her something completely unprecedented (this is because he needs her, but no one has to know that; maybe Kala, later, but even that would take time), when she should be dead and stricken from the worlds' memory; her response has been, at times, to hit him in the face with a frying pan.
If he were a normal Fate, as he has never been -- even before, in the hazy times that he can barely remember for the fact that he was young then, he wasn't the first, he was as ordinary as a demigod can be -- then he would only ever think as one. But he isn't, and so there are different ways he can think. The Fate doesn't understand why Kala could ever have left; the first doesn't understand why he can't bring her back by force; Iall is amazed that she hasn't tried to kill him.
Obviously there's a reason why the rest of them look on Iall with distaste. He is, after all, in certain ways almost human.
But human or not, he is still the first among the Fates, and he remembers.
He could review every accusation leveled against Kala if he wished to. He could also go over everything they'd done to her, though this he only did to remind himself why he couldn't just take her out of the world and deal with the trauma later. And he could look back through centuries, millenia, full cycles of the universe.
There is a pattern: a permanent-seeming order, a messiah to change it, a new order established and this one sinking into stagnancy in its turn.
Kala would be just the next messiah, but she didn't manage to finish anything; Kala would be forgotten, but she has no fate and lives, making her doubly impossible.
Truly it is Iall who should be the messiah for this time, and he will be.
He's going to ensure that they never need another again.
Day / Theme: January 2nd: he whose body is crazy and feeble.
Series: Original [ifupdown]
Character / Pairing: Iall, talking a decent bit about Kala aka Daisy
Rating: PG/PG13
Wordcount: 517
Notes: This is a couple minutes late due to the fact that Linux decided that never copy+pasting again would be a fun thing to do. I hope that's okay. Also, matches a bit to yesterday's. (And then I posted it in the wrong comm. I. Fail.)
There are things he could never tell anyone. For example:
Always, always, there's some kind of rebel. It's a requirement, it's needed, it's -- it's essential, is what it is. Were it not for Kala, Iall wouldn't be in his current post, and so he has her to thank -- in a way he is thanking her; he's far more lenient than his predecessor (his name, Iall remembers, was Zane; and what kind of name is that? A forgotten one, obviously). Kala isn't dead.
Kala's role was to shake things up and she did it too well -- if she'd been worse at changing things, she would not have been found out so quickly, she would not have been taken before the untainted, she might still be here. That, to Iall, is extremely frustrating; he might still have her, were it not for idiot Zane, instead of having to chase after her and put up with any abuse she wanted to heap on him in case she'd be willing to come home.
And truly he can't understand, on the level of his mind that functions as a Fate, why she won't accept. He's offering her something completely unprecedented (this is because he needs her, but no one has to know that; maybe Kala, later, but even that would take time), when she should be dead and stricken from the worlds' memory; her response has been, at times, to hit him in the face with a frying pan.
If he were a normal Fate, as he has never been -- even before, in the hazy times that he can barely remember for the fact that he was young then, he wasn't the first, he was as ordinary as a demigod can be -- then he would only ever think as one. But he isn't, and so there are different ways he can think. The Fate doesn't understand why Kala could ever have left; the first doesn't understand why he can't bring her back by force; Iall is amazed that she hasn't tried to kill him.
Obviously there's a reason why the rest of them look on Iall with distaste. He is, after all, in certain ways almost human.
But human or not, he is still the first among the Fates, and he remembers.
He could review every accusation leveled against Kala if he wished to. He could also go over everything they'd done to her, though this he only did to remind himself why he couldn't just take her out of the world and deal with the trauma later. And he could look back through centuries, millenia, full cycles of the universe.
There is a pattern: a permanent-seeming order, a messiah to change it, a new order established and this one sinking into stagnancy in its turn.
Kala would be just the next messiah, but she didn't manage to finish anything; Kala would be forgotten, but she has no fate and lives, making her doubly impossible.
Truly it is Iall who should be the messiah for this time, and he will be.
He's going to ensure that they never need another again.