31_days | May 4 (D.Grayman) Cycles

Title: Cycles

Characters: Bookman, Lavi,

Prompt: May 4/This too shall pass

A/N: Meh, not quite that proud of this one….

Summary: It was just another cycle but Lavi didn’t get it.

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Bookman had been expecting it when it happened again. Expecting and wondering what took so long for the latest outburst to occur.

Once Lavi returned from the latest mission, his eyes dark and eyebrows scrunched up, he knew he didn’t have to wait any longer. Another argument, another fight, another struggle to understand the truth.

(Why can’t I help them? Why do we have to just watch? Why?)

Lavi would ask the questions because in the end, that was all he could do. Ask questions to which there were no answers. Bookman couldn’t recall going through that phase himself, but he had changed hundreds of times since then so any memory of it would be long suppressed.

Still, he found those questions an annoyance. A trivial matter that shouldn’t be looked at for long. It made no difference who the Noah or the Exorcists were. It didn’t matter what they wanted to accomplish, didn’t matter what would happen should one side win over the other.

They were of the Bookman Clan after all and that granted them a privilege to live through any era.

Perhaps it was time to have Lavi change again, to stop his delays. If he was asking all these questions, having these doubts, that meant he was getting too attached. He would start considering them as friends, start picking one side of the other.

History was supposed to be recorded without biases and getting attached meant that was not possible.

Besides, did it really make a difference which side was the victor? Empires rose and collapsed all the time and this was just one of many. Eventually this group would leave and that was an undeniable truth. In the end, there would always be another battle, always be another war. A new generation would step in and replace the old, telling stories of the past and creating new stories of the future.

Whether a few exorcists lived or died, it did not change this fact and was just a part of the various cycles that life went through.

If only his idiot apprentice would realize that and stop acting so emotionally.