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[Jan. 29][Original] Overestimated
Title: Overestimated
Day/Theme: January 29, 2009 "things shaped in passing"
Series: Original
Character/Pairing: Jin Rembrandt
Rating: PG
Ripples make the world. And I make the ripples.
I hope you'll excuse my inherent arrogance. I like to say things that sound big and important. I want to make a mark on this continent- on this world. I'm afraid of slipping through the cracks. I don't want to die like my grandfather did, tired and confused, without the respect he deserved, watching his daughter and grandsons slip slowly to their doom at the hands of that tyrant they called husband and father. The only appropriate fall is a glorious one.
I'll go down loved, or I'll go down in flames. I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm brave enough to go my own way, and so I am.
-----
Some of the most interesting work I did on the continent (can I really call it work?) came about completely by accident. I started out a king-breaker, but ended up a king-maker. Elisa's successor really does owe something to me for letting him come to power when he did. Without me, who knows what sort of career he would've had? Who knows if he would've ascended the throne at all?
And the Ghirans, for all the trouble I gave them (thorn in the side and all that), turned out for the best in the end, did they not?
Well, I suppose that by the time I found myself in league with Allon Bridgeson I trusted myself and my abilities further than I had in the past. But I didn't completely ruin myself until I returned to Sukaki, to reside for the rest of my life.
Perhaps I had grown too proud and blinded myself with my previous successes, but I think, most of all, that it was a matter of love. ...And love, as my brother, my grandfather, and my mother (among others) could tell you, makes you stupid. In my case, insufferably stupid. No one expected it (least of all Madonna, because nothing I had ever done with her had made me into such a blathering idiot).
So I suppose your question would be- do I regret it?
Yes, is my answer. I regret it, but not for me. (For him. He didn't deserve what I did to him.)
Day/Theme: January 29, 2009 "things shaped in passing"
Series: Original
Character/Pairing: Jin Rembrandt
Rating: PG
Ripples make the world. And I make the ripples.
I hope you'll excuse my inherent arrogance. I like to say things that sound big and important. I want to make a mark on this continent- on this world. I'm afraid of slipping through the cracks. I don't want to die like my grandfather did, tired and confused, without the respect he deserved, watching his daughter and grandsons slip slowly to their doom at the hands of that tyrant they called husband and father. The only appropriate fall is a glorious one.
I'll go down loved, or I'll go down in flames. I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm brave enough to go my own way, and so I am.
-----
Some of the most interesting work I did on the continent (can I really call it work?) came about completely by accident. I started out a king-breaker, but ended up a king-maker. Elisa's successor really does owe something to me for letting him come to power when he did. Without me, who knows what sort of career he would've had? Who knows if he would've ascended the throne at all?
And the Ghirans, for all the trouble I gave them (thorn in the side and all that), turned out for the best in the end, did they not?
Well, I suppose that by the time I found myself in league with Allon Bridgeson I trusted myself and my abilities further than I had in the past. But I didn't completely ruin myself until I returned to Sukaki, to reside for the rest of my life.
Perhaps I had grown too proud and blinded myself with my previous successes, but I think, most of all, that it was a matter of love. ...And love, as my brother, my grandfather, and my mother (among others) could tell you, makes you stupid. In my case, insufferably stupid. No one expected it (least of all Madonna, because nothing I had ever done with her had made me into such a blathering idiot).
So I suppose your question would be- do I regret it?
Yes, is my answer. I regret it, but not for me. (For him. He didn't deserve what I did to him.)