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[Nov. 22, 2008][Tales of Legendia] Learn to Love Again
Title: Learn to Love Again
Day/Theme: Nov. 22, 2008 "ridiculous romantics, I am judging you silently."
Series: Tales of Legendia
Character/Pairing: Fenimore, Shirley, Senel (Shirley/Senel)
Rating: PG
When I look back now on my life experiences I wonder if I was ever a romantic. These days it sure doesn't feel like it could've been possible. You lose any sense of optimism or idealism when you've seen your friends and family tortured and killed. Honestly, just trying to continue on living a normal life isn't easy after all that. It started to seem to me as if anyone who was an idealist, an optimist, or a romantic of any sort was a complete and total idiot, or hopelessly naive. And Shirley seemed that way at first too.
But being with Shirley made me re-evalute my bitter assessment of those things. No matter what happened, she never lost her faith in Senel. And he was an Orerines (albeit a rather nice one, who cared for her a great deal). She never hated anyone. ...On the other hand, I hated plenty of people. Even after Shirley had been Vaclav's prisoner, I never got the sense that she hated Vaclav. Not even with her sister dead. In the same place, I would've been unrepentantly brutal and angry.
And so I fell for her. It wasn't grudging or skeptical like before. It was true and sensible. I would watch her and root for her and Senel. I was trying again. I was working to support her. Smiling at Shirley felt good. I thought I could believe again. Shirley and Senel would love one another. They'd find a way through their difficulties. I only they could find away...then so could I. For Shirley, I became a romantic. Maybe for the first time in my life. And I didn't regret it. I didn't regret it for one moment.
Day/Theme: Nov. 22, 2008 "ridiculous romantics, I am judging you silently."
Series: Tales of Legendia
Character/Pairing: Fenimore, Shirley, Senel (Shirley/Senel)
Rating: PG
When I look back now on my life experiences I wonder if I was ever a romantic. These days it sure doesn't feel like it could've been possible. You lose any sense of optimism or idealism when you've seen your friends and family tortured and killed. Honestly, just trying to continue on living a normal life isn't easy after all that. It started to seem to me as if anyone who was an idealist, an optimist, or a romantic of any sort was a complete and total idiot, or hopelessly naive. And Shirley seemed that way at first too.
But being with Shirley made me re-evalute my bitter assessment of those things. No matter what happened, she never lost her faith in Senel. And he was an Orerines (albeit a rather nice one, who cared for her a great deal). She never hated anyone. ...On the other hand, I hated plenty of people. Even after Shirley had been Vaclav's prisoner, I never got the sense that she hated Vaclav. Not even with her sister dead. In the same place, I would've been unrepentantly brutal and angry.
And so I fell for her. It wasn't grudging or skeptical like before. It was true and sensible. I would watch her and root for her and Senel. I was trying again. I was working to support her. Smiling at Shirley felt good. I thought I could believe again. Shirley and Senel would love one another. They'd find a way through their difficulties. I only they could find away...then so could I. For Shirley, I became a romantic. Maybe for the first time in my life. And I didn't regret it. I didn't regret it for one moment.