But She Has to Believe It [Naruto]

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Title: But She Has to Believe It
Series: Naruto
Character: Haruno Sakura
Theme: September 12: the one thing that I still know
Disclaimer: I no own you no sue.
Rating: K

 

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When it comes down to it, no matter how hopeless it seems, how fruitless, how pointless, how utterly insane it is that she, that they, will still keep plunging on mindlessly ahead. He’s worth it – even when he isn’t. He’s worth it even if she winds up with a sword through her heart, worth the last sight of his mad red eyes staring emotionlessly into hers.

He’s worth everything because Sakura knows what it’s like to live without the person that matters most to you deep in your heart. Even if he’s never felt about her the way she felt, still feels, about him. Even if he says things that plunge cold daggers into her soul, baring it open like a wound. Even… even if she has to watch the back of his head as he, once again runs from her, as he again, shrinks into the darkness inside his soul and lets himself become tainted by it.

Because she knows something many others don’t know about him, something that can only be learned through knowing him, fighting beside him, watching him as he watches her back.

He can see her love. He sees it for what it is when she bares it to him, her emotions raw and naked before him under a moonlit night where everything had changed… where nothing had changed. He won’t, can’t, accept, return, reject it.

He won’t reject it.

He ran from everything that had ever mattered to him, threw his bonds away like they were nothing. But when she offered her love, when she offered her love, he thanked her. In a moment where he could have broken free from her pursuit forever, he didn’t take his chance.

That is why he is worth it, because even though it is a vague, broken, tiny, sliver, it is still hope. It means, might mean, something is there to salvage. There is something she can bring back because he hadn’t seen fit to burn that bridge. Maybe she’s wrong, maybe it’s false hope, maybe this is nothing. Maybe there was nothing to begin with.

But she has to believe it. She has to.