[March 8, 2008] [Detective Conan/Case Closed] Why

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Title: Why

Day/Theme: March 8: Alone in a crowd one night

Series: Detective Conan/Case Closed

Character/Pairing: Shinichi/Ran

Rating: G/K

 

Have you ever had the feeling that you were the only person in the world? And not in a bad way?

I ask myself sometimes why. Why Shinichi? Why did I choose that nerd to spend my life with? To fall in love with, even. Why did I choose a man who sometimes chooses a dead body over me? Why did I choose this man who lied to me? About something very big? And yet very…small?

Overall, the question is why. Why did I choose Shinichi despite his (many) flaws?

Because I love him.

Because each flaw is somewhat endearing in its own way.

Because, though his chosen profession is death, he cherishes life more than almost anyone I know. (Especially since his stint as a child.)

Because, though he lied to me, he had his reasons, and he’s made his apologies and promises concerning the way he handles these situations in the future, and I believe him.

Because, though he seems to attract corpses like a creepy sort of magnet, he’s getting better at turning down the odd case or two so as to spend time with me.

Because, ultimately, he makes my heart stop. He makes me feel special. He makes me feel loved. And he makes me feel like I’m the only one in the world, and sometimes, the way he looks at me…I might as well be.

And when he can make me feel like that…

I can ignore his quirks. Just as he can ignore mine.

And it doesn’t even matter that he’s a mystery geek, or that he babbles endlessly about Sherlock Holmes and Conan Doyle, or that he’s taken to holding my hand a lot, out of habit, he says, from when he was Conan for so long.

It doesn’t matter that I sometimes still have to ask myself why I chose him. (usually when he’s being big-headed, or when he thinks he’s being funny.) Because at the end of the day, he’s still the one I’d choose.

Because no matter his oddities, I have to give him that one huge thing;

He loves me just as much as I love him, and if that doesn’t say something about his character, then I just don’t know what does.

                                       -O-

A U T H O R S   N O T E

*dies now, kthanx*

I’ve been watching a lot of chick flicks with my sister.

It doesn’t show, does it?

*can’t see for all the fluff*

~Ayaia